Piece of My Life!

Hello everyone! This week my daughter and I both have birthdays to celebrate. "Whoop, whoop!"  We are both super excited.  Akayla was born on the 27th and I was born on the 30th of October.  We were both almost Halloween babies! LOL!  For Akayla's birthday her and some of her friends are going to have a girls day out. Their day will consist of bowling, bumper cars, and jumpers; they are all are looking forward to having a wonderful time.   For my birthday me and my pattern have a romantic outing planned in Memphis, Tennessee, I cannot wait.  I know that we are going to have a ball. It's always nice for me to get out and enjoy myself because these times do not come around as often either I'm working, taking care of Akayla or doing school work.  Everything seems like it's too much now and it makes me want to give up on my dreams, but I refuse to let the devil win I shall succeed!

Life for me has not always been easy. I've never had anything just handed to me on a silver spoon.  Coming from a big family things around here got tough.  My mom was a single parent of seven children I'm not the youngest but I'm next to the youngest.  I have four sisters and two brothers on my mom side; my oldest brother is deceased.  We lost my oldest brother in March of 2013 to gun violence and it affected our family tremendously.   Dealing with the death of a love one is very hard because those thoughts and memories never go away especially when you still see the person who committed the crime walking around free.  Throughout it all my family and I have been really strong and have learned that some things are not for us to handle.  We just leave it in God's hands, and everything will work itself out.  Whenever I hear Mariah Carey's song "One Sweet Day" featuring Boys II Men it makes me think of my brother, that's why it's one of my favorite songs. 

Also, The Showers, "Better" is another one of my favorite songs.  This song inspires me to want to do better, especially when I know that I am capable of doing whatever it is that I want to do in life.  Over the past years I've been dealing with trying to find myself as a person.  Growing up I never had the guidance that I needed.  I really didn't have anyone to tell me to go ahead and follow your dreams.  Out of all my mom's kids only four of us graduated from high school, and none of us have graduated from college.  If things go as planned; I will be the first of my mom kids to graduate college.  I've always knew that I wanted to finish school, but over the years I kept putting it off and making up excuses.  One particular morning someone and I was having a conversation and they said something to me about not being good enough or that I didn't meet their standards.  Those words hurt me so bad, but that inspired me to get up and do something about it.  The next morning I rode down the highway in tears to register for school again.  Even though my feelings were hurt I'm glad that things happened the way they did.

One day I want to be able to help people who do not have any guidance in their lives or the people who do not have the support that they need in life to become successful.  There are people who think that it's to late too fix your problems or whatever it is that you are dealing with, but it's never too late.  Always follow your dreams!